. ili: June 2013
السلام عليكم و رحمة الله و بركاته

Sunday, June 23, 2013

The Best Medicine.

I received love message twice.
Enough maxis! Lucky you gave me free sms last time, I'll show mercy this time.
Hmmm... "Love is the best medicine" ay?
You left me questioning "Love towards who!?"

If it's family love, I'm 100% agree.
Who are we without mother ♥
Father plays the role too, without him, we're still a soul with no body to live inside to.
Boys-girls love? *crunches the love pill!!!*
Guys, can't all of you just wait the true love and legally on the side of religion?

Semua tau kan couple tu haram... berkasih sayang dengan bukan mahram... huhu... tau la best. Hat mana tak boleh hat tu yang best kan. Tapi hat halal memang susah sikit, tapi berbaloi dengan usaha nak dapatkan benda halal tu. Dah la halal, dapat pahala In Shaa Allah.
Kalau nak teruskan couple tu, teruskanlah. Memang kita ni, manusia, sangat kuat nak hadapi semua azab yang menanti. Kuat sangat *letak tangan di bahu*

Kesimpulannya anak-anak, hidup ni kena pikiaq dosa pahala. Nak buat apa-apa pun kena pikiaq dosa pahala. Nak kentut pun kena pikiaq, takkan nak kentut betoi-betoi tang batang hidung orang kan. Kesian kawan, sesaklah nafas dia untuk beberapa saat. Kita mestilah cover line, kentut kat pokok kaaa... bermanfaat lagi tu. Depa kan suka tu semua. Haaa, oyak pasa ketut plop ke. HAHA!

Amirul dah buat keputusan yang terbaik. Tabik spring! Toing yoing yoing!

Mr. Soya Bean

Oh my lord!
Since when my blog turned out to be a love blog!?
Shame on you, ili!

Whose Mr. Soya Bean is it, anyway???
Vitamilk is a soya bean drink.
Okay, tak menjawab persoalan. Jawaban tak membina langsung =.,=

I don't know what's wrong with me?
Someone, please hit me *gives soya bean glass bottle*

People always said that love is complicated ...and I agreed.
But does anybody realize or agree that crush is super complicated!!?
Haaa, kau. Dah macam super moon kan. Mentang-mentang hari ni  23 Jun kan.

Mr. Soya Bean. He's my lecturer. My super senior.
Sounds funny though...
I prefer calling him by his name. Not the nick one with no meaning.
Let's support the real name, guys!
Tapi kat sini kena cover line. Malulah saya... Huhu...

He helped me to open my soya glass bottle.
Terima kasih fahani kerana memahamiku. Huhuuu...
Not that really a heroic action of him but to be honest, I kept the bottle .-.
Jujur tak kena tempat pulak ili ni...
Sayang betoi tak simpan penutup botoi tu sekali!
...and that's how the name; Mr. Soya Bean is created!
Cetusan idea atoi la niii!

Enough with my never end dreams.
Come on, ili! He's your lecturer! He's busy with his studies too as a master student.
Soon, he might go somewhere else and see you no more!
Maybe both of you are meant to seeing each other for temporary only.
Wake up, ili! You're such a small servant with super big unlogical dreams.
Don't be over confident even you're friends are supporting you and keep telling you that he's single and I should go for it. Oh myyy... I'm here in USM, to study. Don't play play, iliii!!!!

La ni, Amirul nak letak mana? @__@

Thursday, June 13, 2013


When I play a game and been confused, I'll not hit any button and stay calm.
Hoping that I'll not hurt myself for being confused during attacking.
Other option is to run away!
The great escape!

The method is usable for love life too, I think.
I'm so confuse now.
...and I know that I should do nothing so that less mistake is made.
BUT I should not run away. That's mean I'm a loser. Give up that early.
Early at the age of 20+.
What? I'm not celebrating my handphone rebate yet, so THAT"S IT.
I'm not 21 years old yet.

Confusion, confusion, confusion said Salman.
Deep inside my heart, I'm still hoping for Amirul.
Sorry pengy. Sorry ijan. Sorry everyone.
#Pui. Statement macam bajet hot. Mohon sepak.

Amirul, Hopefully we're together soon ...until Jannah, In Shaa Allah!

Friday, June 7, 2013


Love talk.
Amboi, ili bab cinta mencintainye pun laju ja =.,=
Hmmm, lately, I have been thinking about this in a serious manner.
Wah, gitu. Kau hade? Tapi tak bermakna sebelum ni tak serius.

I should stop couple-ing now. You should too.
We never know if the person is our soul partner. We knows nothing.
Let love be the purest thing to cherish to between husband and wife(s).
Not boyfriend-girlfriend. Burn them all. Kite bakooor!
Wait, I did typed wife(s). Why? Because I support polygamy IF the husband really capable ...in EVERY ASPECT of course.

Now, I will hold myself from being in love and be loved.
But crush is an another story to reveal to. HAHA!
Well, people are likely attracted to what they see, especially nice to see, nice to hold thing.
But for me, personality is the thing.
Sometimes I like quiet person, tall, deep voice, nice smile, spikey hair, tough body, cheeky, hot tempered, funny, small eyes etc etc etc.
It can be anything! It could be you! Oh myyy! #Pffft!
I am so random. I am flexible. I am ili.

21 and thinking about love.
Usually girls turned out to be a woman at the age of 25, right?
So, it's okay to think about her future four years before that age, right? HAHA!
Gatai? ...nak tunggu umoq 52 baru nak gatai kalau, parah la. Parah... parah...
Tapi kalau 52 masih gatai dengan suami, sangat manis. So sweet bak kata omputih.
Hak hak. Adoi laaa... *Baling buluh kat diri sendiri* Garu garu... garu garu...

I am in a great dilemma actually.
Dilemma in love. Love okay, not couple.
When I was in school, teachers said that do not rush for love yet because we will found some later on when we continue study. Some? Jyeah. But only one of them will become someone that we married to when we're working. In Shaa Allah.
Please don't get me wrong. The teachers didn't meant that I have to be a player and date with guys in a time but they meant; I have to get to know to many people. "Get to know" not "couple", you know? So that, I can analyse and choose the best. Best in (again) ...every aspect of course.
Sila rujuk perenggan dua, baris kelima. HAHA!

Different with my friends' opinion. They said don't think about love! Don't abuse the brain with love matter. We will found our special someone when we're working soon.
Hello. Working is the busiest range of time in our life.
The time to search for soul partner are very limited.
But it's okay. opinions always right.
Haaa, kau. Dah macam customer is always right!

Loved, loved, loved, loved, loved~
Pandai pulak lagu si Jason ni masuk time time lagu ni.
I like to share about heart and feeling matter with my girlfriends. Wow, I sounds like a lesbo! Boo me.
I shared about him, about that guy, this guy, guy guy guy gay. #Oops.
At the end, they concluded that I should be with this guy not that guy because blah blah blah...
I wonder... what if, in the end. I'm with no one. All by myself. Pity me but no worry, I'm okay with anything that comes around and goes around me.
People come, people go and people gonna come some more...
But if there's no more? That means, I'm already diffused with soil that time. How come can see people some more? See from above? Then, bury me up there not down below. Huhu...

Hoi! lapan perenggan. Kalau ceramah panjang lagu ni, semua pakat-pakat tidoq lena jom!
I want to mention someone's name actually. He is so... happy-go-lucky person but now no more. I realized that he is emo nowadays.
My cliques' said that he is like that because of me. Based on what they said, I didn't realize about his true feelings towards me. Woots!?
If he do likes me... why on earth he supports me with other guy? I'm so confused.
Bukak la mata tu! Kata si moon.
But he did said that if he likes someone, he might not get her. His statement shot straight at me! That's what I felt that time.
Bukan nak perasan tapi memang terasa yang dia suka ili. Pui. Perasan benooor ili ni =.,=

Yesterday was my course family day.
He sang a song. Even it's just a song, I felt shooted, again. Perasan tak sudah.
He sounds funny and we laughed hard. I laughed but speechless in a same time. The lyric is about love; the guy admires a girl, wanted to be with her and blah blah blah...
Peiii...  kuat perasan ili ni. *Baling mikrofon ke ili*
As soon as we've done with the event, when we're back to campus already, he updated his status. It's a lyric; A sad love story.
The song was played during the event and I burst to tears. Actually I cried because I ate the spicy fried rice and was choke. Cried of choking while listening to a sad song. I'm more likely seing as crying of a sad song.
The lyric really looks like related to him and me. As if he accept of losing me, seeing me happy with other guy and so on. This situation makes me wanted to be with him happily ever after so badly. Like last time, the first semester, me, him and some more friends. We're close and like a family. We're happy being together. But now, it changes. I'm scared to get too near with guys. I'm scared to love again.

Hoi. Ada ka orang nak kat kau, ili?
Dok pikiaq banyak-banyak pasai cinta buat apa. Dok buat teruk.
Hak hak! ili... ili...
But then, he mentioned about someone. He dedicated a love message to someone out there when we're having somewhat dj session during the event; greeting session. But then again... he might just fooling around ...or I slightly hopes that he is fooling around?

Oh myyy! I'm so dilemma. What's wrong with me!?

I used to mentioned Amirul here. I should stop now.